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Dear white people  – Makhadzi Mudzweda

Dear white people:
I don’t even know where to start
In between my busy schedule comprised entirely of surviving white America
There is simply no time to write letters
Besides any letter I write will most likely bring tears to your very eyes and I for one have had my fill of white tears
There are days I think you are not worth my ink, that your whiteness is draining me of too much energy
   Can’t give you a taste of tea for fear you’ll  colonize the whole kitchen
But today I am too angry to remain silent

Dear white people:
Stop making everything about you and how uncomfortable you are
I honestly don’t care about your comfort level
You have made my very existence and exercise in discomfort
It is time for you to make room at the table
-Better yet go sit in the living room
I am not here to cuddle your feelings-
   not here for your amusement
NO you cannot touch my hair
-its not a petting zoo
And stop coming into my office asking for the managers if you are not already looking at one

Dear white people:
Dear white people-
Stop telling me about this “COLOUR BLIND SOCIETY”
-you allegedly live in
-telling me you don’t see race is the racist drivel I hope you choke on
-Telling me you respect me, but don’t see my colour
Is like saying you have to pretend that “I AM NOT BLACK”
In order to respect me
   But let me assure you
I AM BLACK ……though there are plenty of things I AM NOT
Like your sassy black friend
 Stop saying “hey girl!”
When you see me
You aren’t that slick
I hear the way you talk to Becky and Steve everyday
   You sound like vocation on Martha’s Vineyard … where you spent summers waiting in the bitter blue of the Atlantic
How I wish my toes could touch the ocean without stepping on the bones of ancestors

Dear white teachers
Why don’t I know whom my ancestors are
Why is only one part of my history important enough to teach
And for the love of the Creator
Stop swivelling your heads every time slavery is mentioned
… Newsflash, I was not there
And just because I am the only black person in this class
Does not mean you can ask me to speak on behalf of my race
I believe you really care about the opinion of black students when stop shutting down conversations because I call a white student racist

Dear white people:
Why do you hate being called racist more than you hate racism
Why do you listen to Tim Wise over actual black people about the actual black experience
_Dear white people:
Stop using black on black crimes as a reason we should not be outrage  by the murder of black people by apartheid system
If a black person kills a black person
   they will go to jail
AND THAT IS WHAT WE CALL JUSTICE
When the apartheid kills a black person,,, they will get paid leave
AND THAT IS WHAT WE CALL JUSTICE
Apparently JUSTICE is when a black body dies

Dear white people:
Everytime we write white
We have written it in lowercase letters
   because we are tired of you capitalising on our pain 
         . We are angry
         . And raw
         . And tired
         . And angry
         . And raw 
         . And tired 
         . And tired
         . And tired
But we will not rest because we know the future belongs to those who prepare for it 

…..And you have been getting us ready for centuries

Poetry

    The U.N. Headquarters in the High Commissioner’s House in Jerusalem – Yehuda Amichai

    The mediators, the peacemakers,
    the compromise-shapers, the comforters
    live in the white house
    and get their nourishment from far away,
    through winding pipes,
    through dark veins,
    like a fetus.
    Their secretaries are lip sticked and laughing.
    Their sturdy chauffeurs wait below,
    like horses in a stable,
    and the trees that shade them
    have their roots in no-man’s land
    and the illusions are children
    who went out to find cyclamen
    and did not come back.

    My thoughts pass overhead,
    restless, like reconnaissance planes,
    and take photos
    and develop them in dark sad rooms.

    And I know they have heavy chandeliers
    and the boy-I-was sits on them
    and swings out and back,
    out and back,
    out till there’s no coming back.

    Later on night will arrive
    to draw rusty and bent conclusions
    from our old lives,
    and over all the houses
    a melody will gather the scattered word
    like a hand gathering crumbs
    upon a table after the meal,
    when the talk continues
    and the children are asleep.
    And hopes come to me like bold seafarers,
    like the discoverers of continents coming to an island,
    and stay for a day or two and rest…
    And then again set sail.

    .

    Poetry

      Georgics: Book I excerpt – Virgil

      Rain never takes men unawares:

      either the cranes, airborne, fly before it, as it reaches

      the valley’s depths, or a heifer looks up at the sky

      and sniffs the air with nostrils spread,

      or the swallows twitter circling the pools,

      and the frogs in the mud croak their ancient lament.

      And often the ant, beating out a narrow track,

      brings eggs from an innermost nest, and a huge rainbow

      drinks, and a great troop of rooks leaving the fields

      beat their wings together densely, in ranks.

      Then the cruel raven’s deep cry calls up the rain,

      and, alone with himself, he walks the dry sands.

      Even girls, spinning, at their nocturnal task, have not failed

      to note the coming storm, seeing the oil sputter

      in the fiery lamp, and a clot of soot gather on the wick.

      No less, after rain, do we predict sunlight and clear skies,

      and recognize fair weather by certain signs:

      since the stars’ sharp edges are not obscured

      and the Moon rises, not dimmed by her brother’s rays,

      and thin fleecy clouds no longer drift across the sky:

      But the mists seek out the valleys more, and settle

      on the plains, and the owl, watching the sunset

      from some high hill, gives out its twilight calls in vain.

      Now the rooks repeat their clear calls, three or four times,

      with narrowed throats, and often caw to themselves

      in their high nests among the leaves, delighting

      in some unusual pleasantry: they’re glad, the rain over,

      to see their sweet nests and their little chicks again:

      not that I think they have divine wisdom

      or greater knowledge of the workings of Fate:

      but when the weather changes, and the rain from fickle skies,

      and Jupiter, among the wet South winds, makes what was now

      rarefied, dense, and makes dense what was rarefied,

      ideas in their minds alter, and their hearts feel differently,

      differently to when the wind was chasing the clouds.

      So that chorus of birds in the fields, the delight

      of the cattle, the triumphant cries of the rooks.

      Poetry

        Crow – Doug Anderson

        Crows
        Hunch in the trees
        to gossip
        about God and his inexorable
        experimenting,
        about deer guts and fish so stupid
        you could sell them air
        and how out in the deserts
        there’s a dog called coyote
        with their mind
        but no wings.
        Crow with Iroquois hair.
        Crow with a wisecrack for everybody,
        Crow with his beak
        thrust through a bun,
        the paper still clinging.
        Then one says something
        and they all leave,
        complaining
        the trees are not what they used to be.
        Crow with oilslick eyes.
        Crow with a knife
        sheathed in a shark’s fin.
        Crow
        in a midnight blue suit
        standing in front of a judge:
        Your Honor, I didn’t
        kill him, just ate him
        and I wasn’t impressed.

        Poetry

          It Happens All the Time – Hafez

          It happens all the time in heaven,
          And some day
          It will begin to happen
          Again on earth –
          That men and women who are married,
          And men and men who are
          Lovers,
          And women and women
          Who give each other
          Light,
          Often will get down on their knees
          And while so tenderly
          Holding their lover’s hand,
          With tear-filled eyes,
          Will sincerely speak, saying,
          “My dear,
          How can I be more loving to you;
          How can I be more kind?”

          Poetry

            I Wish I Knew How It Would Feel to Be Free -Billy Taylor and Dick Dallas

            Against the Odds – David Lerner

            it’s impossible
            that we keep breathing
            with all the years
            pressing on our chest

            it’s impossible
            that we keep walking
            given the condition
            of the heart’s terrain

            it’s impossible
            that laughter continues to spill
            from the cracks in our sorrow

            that anger continues to be
            a kind of faith

            that the small graces
            coffee, clean socks, the stillness of night

            still sustain us
            sometimes

            it’s impossible
            how we break on our dreams
            and then dream them again

            how amidst the thousand small terrors
            of daily life
            it is possible to be kind

            how as the ax falls
            and nooses swing
            we go on checking the TV Guide for decent movies
            accepting some phone calls, dodging others

            doing battle with the rent and the weather and
            the holes in our shoes and
            the distance between us

            there is something inside me that says
            yes
            there is no way out
            you have to play this terrible guitar
            until the strings break
            or your fingers

            but the music I know
            in the moments between
            the panic I hold more intimately
            than any lover

            it’s impossible
            how much sorrow
            a smile can hold

            Poetry

              Eugene Bullard – a hidden figure

              When the President of France visited the United States in April 1960, he asked the FBI to help him find a man.
              The man he was looking for was an American citizen. He was sixty-four years old. He had been awarded fifteen French military decorations and — six months earlier, in a ceremony in Paris — had been made a Knight of the Légion d’honneur, the highest civilian honor France can give. The medal had been pinned to his chest by the President himself, who had publicly called him un véritable héros français. A true French hero.
              The FBI located the man within a few days.
              He was operating an elevator at Rockefeller Center in New York City.
              The elevator operator’s name was Eugene Bullard. He had been born in Columbus, Georgia, in 1895, the son of a man whose own father had been a slave.
              He had run away from Columbus at the age of eleven, after watching a white mob nearly lynch his father.
              He spent the next several years drifting through the American South. At sixteen, he stowed away on a German freighter at Norfolk, Virginia. He landed in Aberdeen, Scotland. From there he made his way to London, where he learned to box. By 1913, at eighteen, he was prizefighting in Paris.
              When Germany invaded France in August 1914, Bullard was nineteen years old. He had no legal obligation to fight. He had no French citizenship.
              He went to the recruiting office on October 19, 1914, and signed up for the French Foreign Legion.
              He spent the next eighteen months as an infantryman in some of the worst fighting of the war — at the Somme, at Champagne, at Verdun. He was wounded three times. The third wound, on March 5, 1916, tore open his thigh and left him with permanent damage to his leg.
              He was twenty years old. The doctors told him he would not return to the infantry.
              He decided he wanted to fly.
              In a Paris café in the spring of 1916, while he was recovering, Bullard mentioned to three white American friends that he was thinking of joining the French air service. A Mississippian named Jeff Dickson laughed.
              Gene, Dickson said, you know damn well there aren’t any Negroes in aviation.
              Bullard answered: Sure do. That’s why I want to get into it. There has to be a first to everything, and I’m going to be the first.
              Dickson bet him two thousand dollars he would not make it.
              Bullard took the bet. He earned his pilot’s license on May 5, 1917. He won the bet.
              He reported to the front in August 1917 and flew approximately twenty combat missions over the next three months in a SPAD VII. The fuselage was painted with a bleeding heart pierced by a knife and the French phrase Tout le Sang qui Coule est Rouge — All Blood that Flows is Red.
              He carried, on every combat flight, a small capuchin monkey named Jimmy in the front of his flight jacket.
              The French press began calling him L’Hirondelle Noire — the Black Swallow.
              When the United States entered the war in 1917, Bullard immediately applied to transfer to the U.S. Army Air Service.
              His application was rejected.
              The U.S. Army Air Service had a policy, in 1917, of not accepting Black pilots. The other American pilots flying for France in his unit, all of them white, were transferred to the U.S. Air Service.
              He was the only one who was not.
              For the next twenty years, he was one of the most familiar faces in the Montmartre nightlife of Paris between the wars. He owned a nightclub called L’Escadrille. He spoke fluent French, English, and German. Hemingway drank there. Fitzgerald drank there. Langston Hughes drank there. Josephine Baker performed there. Louis Armstrong was a personal friend.
              When Germany invaded Poland in 1939, Bullard was forty-four. His fluent German and his ownership of a nightclub frequented by German officers made him useful to the French Resistance. He became an intelligence agent — eavesdropping in his own bar on conversations between German officers who did not know he understood every word.
              When France fell in June 1940, friends in the Resistance smuggled him across the Spanish border before the Gestapo could arrest him.
              He came back to the United States for the first time in twenty-eight years.
              He arrived in New York with thirty dollars in his pocket and a permanent limp.
              He did not return to a hero’s welcome. He returned to a country that had no idea who he was.
              He worked at a perfume counter. He worked as a security guard. He worked at the Staten Island shipyards. By the late 1940s, he had taken the job that he would hold for most of the rest of his life.
              He operated the elevator at Rockefeller Center.
              He was wearing the elevator uniform on the day a producer from NBC came down from the studios upstairs to ask if he was the man Charles de Gaulle had been looking for.
              A few weeks later, NBC sent a film crew to interview him in the lobby. The studios where NBC produced The Today Show were on the floors above. He had operated the elevator that took the network executives up to those studios every morning for nearly ten years. He had not been recognized as he did it.
              He went back to operating the elevator the following Monday.
              He died of stomach cancer on October 12, 1961, three days after his sixty-sixth birthday.
              He was buried in the French War Veterans’ section of Flushing Cemetery, in Queens, in the uniform of the French Foreign Legion. The casket was draped with the French flag.
              In 1994 — thirty-three years after his death — the United States Air Force formally commissioned Eugene Jacques Bullard as a Second Lieutenant, posthumously.
              It was the first commission the U.S. military had ever offered him.
              He had been the first Black combat pilot in American history.
              The French had been calling him a hero since 1917.
              The Americans got around to it in 1994.

              RACIAL AWARENESS

                Eugene Bullard

                I think every human being – Matt Moberg

                I think every human being
                eventually has a moment
                where they are standing outside in sweatpants
                that have lost the will to be pants,
                holding a trash bag, a divorce, a parking ticket,
                or some other receipt from the universe
                that says, “surprise, this too is part of it.”

                And then the sky bruises purple.

                And the air touches your face
                like it knows your whole story.

                And suddenly you realize:

                all the real is actually unreal.

                The dirt.
                The breath.
                The weird little bones in your hands.
                The fact that we are here,
                on a floating rock with pollen counts,
                paying bills,
                missing dead people,
                loving living people
                who say “leaving now”
                while still fully naked and looking for socks.

                And still,
                the moon clocks in.

                No applause.
                No benefits.
                No note from management saying,
                “Great work being ancient and luminous again.”

                Just the moon,
                working nights
                like a single mother with no applause,
                packing silver lunches
                for every dark thing
                that still has to rise.

                Tell me that isn’t holy.
                Tell me there is a better word
                than sacred
                for the way light keeps returning
                with no guarantee
                we will actually stop and take note.

                I know people who believe in therapy,
                probiotics,
                tarot,
                twelve-step meetings,
                manifestation journals,
                and waiting exactly eleven minutes
                before texting back
                so they do not appear emotionally available,
                even though their whole nervous system
                is standing in the driveway holding flowers.

                And underneath all of it,
                every ritual,
                every doctrine,
                every smoothie with chia seeds,
                the prayer is the same:

                Please let me be loved.
                Please let me be forgiven.
                Please let this strange little life
                mean something
                before my lower back
                submits its formal resignation.

                What is going on?

                For real tho—What is this place?

                This unbearable tenderness
                of being alive long enough
                to watch steam lift from coffee in winter
                like a soul practicing leaving.

                To see your friend laugh so hard
                they slap the table
                as if joy is a mosquito
                they are trying to kill.

                To hear a child say “pisghetti”
                and, for one shining second,
                realize language
                has finally been improved.

                I know I already noted this in the first piece,
                but the older I get,
                the less use I have for certainty.

                Certainty has never made me pull over
                because the sunset looked like God
                dropped a jar of peach jam
                across the whole midwestern sky
                and decided to be lazy
                and not clean up.

                Certainty has never made me gasp
                at rain on hot pavement.

                Certainty has never found me
                in the cereal aisle,
                holding Captain Crunch,
                suddenly remembering
                that everyone I have ever loved
                was made from stardust,
                hunger,
                and a series of decisions
                we probably should have slept on.

                No.
                It has always been awe.

                Awe was the first church.

                Before steeples.
                Before committees.
                Before men got involved
                and started making rules about skirts.

                Awe was there
                with its wild hair
                and muddy feet,
                saying:

                Look.
                Look again.
                Look until looking
                becomes love.

                Awe, and soup.

                Awe, and someone rubbing your back
                when you are sick.

                Awe, and old couples at Target
                arguing gently about avocados,
                as if marriage is not one vow
                but ten thousand errands
                performed beside the person
                who knows exactly
                how you like the cart pushed.

                Maybe gratitude
                was never meant to sound elegant.

                Maybe gratitude sounds like:

                “Damn.
                That woodpecker is trying
                to beat that tree from itself.”

                Maybe gratitude sounds like:

                “Thank you, body,
                for continuing to drag me through this world
                despite the many slim jims
                I have done to you
                at gas stations.”

                Maybe gratitude sounds like:

                “Thank you to the dogs
                who lose their entire minds
                when we come home
                as if we have returned from war
                and not Walgreens.”

                For me, that might be my gospel.

                That joy that does not wait for us
                to be impressive but only needs us
                to come through the door.

                Because the truth is,
                this life is devastating.

                And ridiculous.

                One minute you are 22 and invincible,
                driving too fast,
                eating gas station nachos
                with the confidence of a Greek god.

                The next minute you are googling,
                “Can sneezing cause a hamstring injury?”
                and the answer is,
                apparently,
                “Welcome to the second half of your life.”

                But even now—

                even tired,
                even grieving,
                even emotionally held together
                by iced coffee, playlists,
                and one very specific wolves hoodie—

                we keep finding reasons
                to stay soft.

                We plant tomatoes
                even though grief is real.

                We bake bread
                even though the news is on fire.

                We send photos of the sky
                to people we love
                with captions like,
                “LOOK,”
                as if beauty is an emergency
                and we are all volunteer firefighters.

                We keep saying,
                “You have to see this,”
                because wonder
                is the oldest form
                of resurrection.

                So here’s to the believers
                and the atheists
                and the agnostics
                and the people whose entire theology
                is just trying not to cry
                in the DMV line.

                Here’s to the people clinging to faith.

                Here’s to the people clinging to Xanax
                and oat milk
                and the one group chat
                where nobody pretends to be okay.

                Here’s to the tender-hearted weirdos.

                The accidental mystics.

                The ones who can contemplate mortality
                for six straight hours
                and then become emotionally attached
                to a perfect peach.

                The ones who know
                despair has a mouth,
                but so does laughter.

                May we never stop being drop-kicked by beauty
                in the middle of a Sunday afternoon.

                May we never become so polished
                that we forget how to stand
                in the Starbucks line of existence
                with our dumb, gorgeous hearts open,
                feeling the enormity of it all
                rattle around in our bones
                like thunder
                looking for somewhere to laugh.

                And may we remember:

                whatever else this is,
                whatever mess,
                whatever miracle,
                whatever cosmic group project
                no one was prepped for—

                all’ve it is astonishing.
                that we are here.
                that we have loved enough to be ruined.
                that the moon keeps showing up.
                that bread exists.

                So pass it on.

                Tear off a piece
                with your bare hands.

                Take it in as you take it down.

                And then go outside and look at that moon.

                Poetry

                  Do You Know What Today Is? – Danez Smith

                  unfortunately, or blessed, it could have been
                  hours, or years, but it was hours
                  we disappeared into, touch i shouldn’t
                  savor, not this day, not while missing you,
                  not this deep in love, but a year ago,
                  or was it days, we said i do
                  which under it laid dozens more commitments,
                  one being our commitment to pleasure,
                  to touch, to the touch of others, so i do
                  but also i will continue to do it, that it,
                  with people that are not you—love,
                  believe it, or not, lives in that promise
                  too, i love the sounds others pull from you,
                  i love your ecstasy even if i’m not around
                  to engineer it, and here i am, on the other
                  side of the promise, on the other side
                  of the world, underneath this person
                  who i have promised nothing
                  but my attention and effort until it’s done,
                  and it was, done under the moon
                  until the rain started and, then, done
                  under the rain, i am ashamed to say it,
                  but i must say it: i would have asked them
                  to stay, to do it again, to touch me forever
                  had i not, and thank God i did,
                  placed my forever in you, but amor,
                  amor, you should have seen it, us:
                  beneath the rain, a storm,
                  under the promise,
                  my loaned breath.